June 9, 2009

It was another fantastic workout with Dorian tonight. I must confess that I did have a major meltdown this afternoon. I have a terrible habit about worrying about everyone's feelings and if people are going to be mad at me. So, needless to say, starting around 1 this afternoon at work, I started working myself up, sick to my stomach, etc. By the time I got home and changed, I was so into a panic attack, I just sat and cried. My mom is such an upbeat and inspirational person (yes, sometimes I would like to smack her, when I am aggravated, LOL) was trying to make me feel better. So, I walked out the door and went to the gym (red and puffy eyes too). Otto and Dorian talked with me and made me feel alot better, I really appreciate it! But in the end, she still kicked my butt tonight. Yep, I looked like a drowned rat at the end of it all. Still having trouble trying to get in everything I should be eating....I am eating very healthy just not enough for what I am doing. I am glad for the nutrition class coming up Thursday night.

Until tomorrow,

Missy